...So Andrea and I are set to get a place together at the end of next month. She's wanted me to share my thoughts on the matter, so here they are.
I'm feeling a mix of joy at the prospect of finally being out on my own, getting my own little corner of the world, and finally living with the woman I love, and anxiety over things falling apart before the move, not being able to afford anything, and what might happen if Andrea' parents found out about me. I really want to make this work, especially what with all she and I have planned over the next several months.
There's also the matter of my family. I can't help but get mixed signals from them, saying they hope things work out one moment and saying that I'm not ready the next. Uh, you'll forgive me for not necessarily agreeing with that last one. But really, like Adam said when I first talked to him about this, no one's ever really ready for anything. You just have to grow into these things. And I like to think that I've done my share of growing over the last few years. Besides that, everyone says that over here, I'd still have everyone's support. Not for nothing, but I don't want to feel like I have to keep living in everyone's shadow. I want to try my hand at being my own person.
All in all, I like to think that Andrea and I will make this all work. We're both commited to each other, and as long as we have each other's back, then we should be just fine. Sure, I'll miss all of my family, but I'd still like to keep them in my life. It's just that I'd like to try to make it on my own terms.
TL; DR, time for this bird to leave the nest, spread his wings, and fly.