Z to the K
10 March 2009 @ 10:09 pm
And I just put in an application for a job at the hospital where Andrea works. Wish me luck.
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
Z to the K
03 March 2009 @ 07:56 pm
Got myself Gaiares for the Genesis. A nice little shmup, even if it is maddeningly difficult.
Current Mood: relaxedrelaxed
Z to the K
01 March 2009 @ 06:42 pm
So, in case anyone's been keeping up with Andrea's journal, it's been a tumultuous time between the two of us. I was supposed to move in with her last week, but I turned into a big pile of fail and went on one last ski trip with my family instead. Neither of us have been taking it well, with Andrea wondering just how important she is in the scheme of things, and me being forced to look into the mirror and see a miserable piece of human detrius staring back.

Over the last week, I've been thinking about how Andrea has been nothing but supportive of me throughout all this, and how my family, while they're supposed to help me out, have instead been trying to talk me out of it. It really made me put things in perspective. But there was something my dad said while we were taking last week: this is ultimately my decision. And he's right. This is my life, my choice, my responsibility. No one else can live my life for me.

...Which is why I've taken the first step, and put in my 2 weeks' notice at work. I realize it's a small step, but at least things are starting to go into motion. Now all I have to do is stick to my guns and convince my family that this move will be a good thing for me.

Someone please pray for me.
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Z to the K
18 February 2009 @ 12:22 am
I really am a POS sometimes.

I basically lied to Andrea about moving at the end of the month. And all because I was too chickenshit to take the risk for my own happiness. All my life, I've done everything I could to please my family, and while I was content to be with them, I was never really happy that I was still basically living at home. As far apart as she and I were, at least Andrea made me feel like someone special, and not just a kid, or as a live-in servant.

Why? Why did I have to lie to her and treat her like she wasn't that important to me, even though I know that she is? How long will it be before I finally grow a freakin' pair and tell my family that this is what I want?

Seriously, what the hell is wrong with me?
Current Mood: crappycrappy
Z to the K
30 January 2009 @ 07:14 pm
...So Andrea and I are set to get a place together at the end of next month. She's wanted me to share my thoughts on the matter, so here they are.

I'm feeling a mix of joy at the prospect of finally being out on my own, getting my own little corner of the world, and finally living with the woman I love, and anxiety over things falling apart before the move, not being able to afford anything, and what might happen if Andrea' parents found out about me. I really want to make this work, especially what with all she and I have planned over the next several months.

There's also the matter of my family. I can't help but get mixed signals from them, saying they hope things work out one moment and saying that I'm not ready the next. Uh, you'll forgive me for not necessarily agreeing with that last one. But really, like Adam said when I first talked to him about this, no one's ever really ready for anything. You just have to grow into these things. And I like to think that I've done my share of growing over the last few years. Besides that, everyone says that over here, I'd still have everyone's support. Not for nothing, but I don't want to feel like I have to keep living in everyone's shadow. I want to try my hand at being my own person.

All in all, I like to think that Andrea and I will make this all work. We're both commited to each other, and as long as we have each other's back, then we should be just fine. Sure, I'll miss all of my family, but I'd still like to keep them in my life. It's just that I'd like to try to make it on my own terms.

TL; DR, time for this bird to leave the nest, spread his wings, and fly.
Current Mood: calmcalm
Z to the K
25 January 2009 @ 08:39 pm
Who (or what) is your favorite fictional robot?

Optimus Prime, Megas, GaoGaiGar, Gurren Lagann, Voltron, Mighty Orbots, Aaron Stack, HK-47, Marvin the Paranoid Android, Pegas... need I go on?
Z to the K
22 January 2009 @ 03:04 pm

Seriously, the collective of heads-up-their-asses dolts that I laughingly refer to as the Academy wouldn't know a good film if it came up and punched them in their dumb monkey faces.
Current Mood: angrysnarky
Z to the K
21 January 2009 @ 07:59 am
...I'm such an ass.

Andrea and I were both getting ready to move at the end of the month. Although I was happy that I was finally going to be able to have my own life and be my own man, I was also worried that I wouldn't have enough money for the move. I told her that I wanted to wait last night, when I should've told her right off the bat. Not only that, but I also managed to hurt her with things that I've said, and storming off during our talk. I could've avoided all this misery by just telling her about my concerns, but it seems all I've done is ruin things for both of us because I valued her happiness over my concerns.

When the hell am I ever gonna learn that my feelings matter?
Current Mood: sadsad
Z to the K
12 January 2009 @ 10:21 pm
Y'all have one more chance to experience the joy that is Klonoa: Door to Phantomile, this time on the Wii.

Anyone can play Grand Theft Auto. Real men play Klonoa.

Hat tip: mizanchan.
Current Mood: geekygeeky
Z to the K
07 January 2009 @ 07:52 am
mizanchan and I put in the application for an apartment over in her area yesterday. We should know hopefully soon whether or not we get it.

Wish us luck! :)
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful